In between A rock and A hard place!

So being that i can't find a job i have two options 1. i can either find a job up here and try to make enough money to stay in my lease or 2. try to get out of my lease and move back home with my parents. I really enjoy living on my own though and if i move back home it will make me feel like a failure. And i really want to stay on my own. I just don't know what to do there's a part of me that says i need to get out of my lease and theres another part of me that says it will be okay and i need to get through it, this is just a hard time and i can make it. I know im young and probably a little stuborn but i just want whats best for me. Thats all for now.